I wrote you a letter and I told you you were dead


"I've always felt more comfortable with the bad reviews than the good ones. Well, until I decided to stop reading them. I'm the kind of person that if I'm in a room with twenty people all saying, 'That's good' and there's one person saying, 'You know what, that sucks', I'll be going, 'He's right! I'm sure it does suck…' After any approval you'd get a little frisson that lasted twenty minutes from somebody saying something nice, then… That unleashes a lot of self-doubt that turns into self-loathing. I've found that a lot over the years. With those emotions comes the rapid retreat from wanting to do it at all. And that's what happened back in the 90s.

"I went kind of nuts ... I ended up in hospital. I was not a well man. That was the decision made for me. So I retreated back to Usk in Wales. I'd always liked the place when I was a kid. I knew it was quiet and I knew it had some nice pubs. I just wanted to get away from everybody. So I did. I split up with my girlfriend, split from my management, split up with the musicians in the band, left the record labels and left my flat in Islington empty. I left everything there for years."

-- Green Gartside of Scritti Politti interviewed by Robin Turner, 2011

Sleep in our clothes and wait for winter to leave

What's your writing regimen?

I think I'm going to just start writing and keep writing until they throw me in jail. Other than that, I set aside all day every day for writing and break it up with going home to see my family or having lunch or getting a haircut...

Do you see a career plan?

I don't know. I just make them up as I go along. Whatever anybody says, you're always making it up as you go along. It's like when you have babies; nobody gives you a how to book; nobody gives you a manual. It's like any of the important things in life. Whether it's your career, whether it's marriage, whether it's child rearing, you're making it up as you go along. And you try to have certain precepts, and sometimes they even change.

Going dark


Bad style

"... Style, when it works, takes the reader to a deeper place than can be arrived at thematically. It takes you to an inner understanding of the writer's mind that isn't about words. In art, style is not superficial. Or rather it is, but it's also a way into the deeper body of the thing in a way that's hard to talk about, or write about, but which readers feel. The book had a sensibility that disturbed some people, but I don't think it was truly about "hardness." If anything, they may've been disturbed by the very softness I refer to, because it may've made them feel something."

Take the blue mask down from my face



Before somebody blows your goddam brains out




Waking the Witch


"... the hardest thing is sort of being psyched up in the right way to do the vocal with the right emotional feeling. And the hardest thing for me is to be able to feel relaxed enough to be uninhibited. So sometimes I do get just a little drunk, and at other times I like to do them with Del, because I feel much more relaxed than if there's an outside engineer there. I mean, I do become quite sensitive when I start singing."

So can I assume you're pissed out of your head on The Big Sky?

"Yes, I might be getting drunk on that one -- the ad libs on the end, that was where I had to get drunk. And definitely on Waking the Witch. I was very drunk doing that."

-- Kate Bush interviewed by Peter Swales, 1985

Wild wing

"What is it that I really like? Following that is a long process of self-excavation from being buried by what you've been told you should like."


"When you hear the word 'jazz,' immediately you've got a certain connotation. If you're not on the inside and know that it's a much broader category, you're just kind of like, 'Oh yeah, I've been there, done that.' If a piece were played on a classical station, saying 'This is the new Phillip Glass,' or the new this-or-that, of somebody from that world, I think it would be accepted, number one; and it would be a whole [different] group of listeners who could be enticed to buy the record, number two.

"I look at it this way. First of all, I grew up in America. I grew up where jazz comes from. It's in the air and in the bloodstream. But if I were looking at the world's music from a more objective viewpoint—outer space or something—I'd say: 'Well, jazz is this music over here. And so to leave it out, if I'm really listening to all the flavors, let's say, from all the places, then to leave that out would be crazy. First of all, it's in my bloodstream. And jazz, itself, is a hybrid, a musical hybrid. It is the collision of African and American—actually African and European, as translated through an American sensibility. So that's why the references are there, and the general feeling of latter-day jazz manifestations à la Gil Evans and Miles.

"At the same time, it was a strange learning process for me—I think I've used the phrase before about parachuting into the jazz world and not having hacked my way through the jungle to whatever center there might be. When I studied, I'm in Memphis, I hear things, I'm blown away as a kid by hearing Stan Kenton and the big improvising orchestra coming—a string section, five trumpets, five trombones, five saxophones, with Maynard Ferguson screaming on top. That was the most thrilling thing I'd ever heard in my life. Not that I didn't know—my parents would let me drive the car if I would go to church on Sunday. But what I'd do is just park and listen to the radio. And I remember Kenton coming on, and I thought, 'Wow! This is amazing. I've never heard this before.'

"So I have a much longer treatise to write about, in some sense, what it is that presets an ear—our sensibility to listen to big, thick chords; to the lush harmonies that came via [Maurice] Ravel, [Claude] Debussy and Impressionism, coming through people like Gil [Evans] and the tradition of using it and translating it in urban terms, the harmonic language of Impressionism. So I've come up through that, I go to school, I'm in Eastman School of Music, I'm studying orchestral trumpet playing, orchestral excerpts and trying to learn "Petrushka" solos and things like that, and [Igor] Stravinsky, at least 'Histoire du soldat.' And I'm kind of slated towards orchestral playing. But then I'm a composer, I'm not really there for trumpet; I'm there in composition basically. Actually, at that point, it was probably for both.

"So I'm in the kind of wild wing of composition..."

Dialogues with Marcel Duchamp by Pierre Cabanne (A Da Capo, 1987)

Poetics

Suzuki

I couldn't spend another hour of daylight


"What if you were driving in your car on the way to the desert and suddenly your engine stopped? What if you got out to flag down a car and you just disappeared?"
-- Darren McGavin on Kolchak: The Night Stalker

Trance state

"Once I'm writing a novel, it's like laying a few bricks every day to build a house until the house is done. I write early in the morning. I work from seven or eight until one o'clock in the afternoon. I just add to it. In general, I don't know where I'm going with it. I like to have a process of discovery, so it's kind of a mystery to me where it goes, but I know the characters well ... When I'm involved in a novel, it's really like being in a trance for the several months that it takes. I'm preoccupied. But the great thing, Todd, is that there are no rules. That's something I always liked about being a writer. However you get it done, you get it done."

 -- Barry Gifford interviewed by Todd Summar, 2015

Easy movement

"Mennonites ... believe that if you look at the history of tractors with rubber tires, you see failure within a generation. Rubber tires enable easy movement, and easy movement means that, inevitably, the farm will grow, which means more profit. More profit, in turn, leads to the acquisition of even more land, which usually means less crop diversity, more large machinery, and so on. Pretty soon the farmer becomes less intimate with his farm. It's that lack of intimacy that leads to ignorance, and eventually to loss."

-- The Third Plate: Field Notes on the Future of Food by Dan Barber (The Penguin Press, 2014)

Girls in Danger



Who is the murderer?
With which word did he give himself away?
(See page 116 for the solution.)

-- Puzzlers for Young Detectives (Krimischule für junge Privatdetektive) by K. Franken
(Verlag J.Pfieffer, 1968 / Piccolo, 1972)

Always do what you are afraid to do

"There's a quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson, something to the effect of: 'if you can't be free, then be as free as you can be'. And I like the arbitrary restrictions that one places on oneself, so that you don't get scatterbrained and don't reach for everything that's available. Keep your focus very narrow: just this and nothing more, and make that absolutely exquisite and don't get sucked into distractions, don't listen to the siren chorus singing across the waves about this keyboard that has a billion sounds in it. I couldn't care less about things like that. They just get in the way. I'm not bragging, but the way I work is that I focus entirely on a small thing and try to milk that for all it's worth, to find everything in it that makes musical sense. A studio gives you the freedom to do that, but it also gives you the freedom to do everything, and to me everything is a tyranny. What's the point? So for me it's a conscious choice to work in a studio when I want and need to, but not to own a studio. It's the same with owning instruments. All I have is an old, worthless Casio 202, which I don't even use any more, and the shakers and bells. I don't even have a piano any more."

-- Harold Budd interviewed by Paul Tingen for Sound on Sound, 1997

We're a long way out to sea


"So you’re standing on the Earth. Let’s assume the Earth is a perfect sphere, because that makes things a lot easier. What does our situation look like?"

The moment you know



Gaga did Bowie. Duncan Jones tweeted:
The problem with Bowie tributes is that Bowie left all that stuff behind. He didn't linger when he could or should have: it wasn't the changes but the changing. He left a trail of fans holding moments that were important in their lives, which is what pop does: it marks time like a photograph of summer. But then the seasons shift, and no matter how good they were to recall them is to roll in melancholy.

Bowie himself was never truly melancholy until the goodbye wrench of 'Where are we now' -- his last album, Black Star, is filled with a resolved sadness but it's nothing like the beautiful dejection of that 2013 single. The cover of The Next Day is Heroes, patched with text like an afterthought: the moment when the artist reached back for his Berlin self just for a moment, then let go.

The End